Given that my life will be turned upside down (again) when I go on days in August, I decided the only thing I can do is exercise control over those things I can control. I was (am?) tired of my body hurting when I moved very much at all. I was backing away from things because I was afraid to put my back all the way out instead of just hurting a little as it was every day. So, I joined Planet Fitness. I joined that gym for several reasons. No contract, low buy-out fee, gyms near both where I live and where I work that are open 24 hrs., and low monthly fee. Gypsy (On the Road Again) has been my inspiration (see side bar) for just how much better life can be if I just take control. Also, when I started back walking every day my back pain started to minimize. So far so good. I've gone 3 times, and the constant pain is pretty much gone. I'm easing up to the machines, but so far so good.
Also, like most everyone on the internet I've been reading a lot about the decluttering and storage methods of Marie Kondo. I haven't read the actual book yet. She recommends putting all of a like item (such as ALL your clothes) in a pile and picking up each item and asking if it sparks joy. I haven't gotten that courageous (or fool-hardy!) yet, but I did fold all my tshirts the way she recommends and it does make a difference. For one thing, I can see each and every one of them when I open the drawer. It makes me feel more at choice which one I decide to wear that day. It isn't just what was on the top layer.
The decluttering is part of a deeper plan to get free of having so much stuff. The amount of stuff I own has driven so many of my life decisions in a direction that wasn't optimal for what I really wanted. Stuff costs money to own. It costs emotional energy to maintain and store. So, I'm in deep decluttering mode in order to move forward. A friend at work has a place to donate household goods so I'll be going through all my cookware, pots, pans and skillets , mixing and storage bowls, spatulas and mixing spoons, small appliances, and so forth. I have a lot. Hopefully within the next few weeks I'll have less.
All this is part of the plan not to be dependent on work. As I get rid of stuff I can look into being more mobile. As I sort and shred paperwork I can clear my mind and get my resume and job-seeking skills honed. I'll control those things I can control as I move towards moving to a space of choice rather than a space of taking whatever I can get.