Ara's posting on Oct. 6 that I read today http://theoasisofmysoul.com/ has me in a reflective mood. I have to keep reminding myself what the point of this exercise down here is really. It is mostly about paying off debt. I needed to go someplace that my income would be enough greater than my outgo that I could pay off around $110K in debt. That does include my house that will hopefully sell. The economy in the US is such that I was finding it difficult to meet that criteria. Honduras is a place where my credentials qualify me for a job that allows me to live cheaply and pay debt. What goes along with that is being in a place I have never, ever, experienced before, nor anything like it. I have never really been outside of the US, except for 3 weeks in Germany for work a couple of years ago. I do want to get out and see Honduras while I'm down here, but on my own time. By that I mean that I'm taking it slowly. That is in conflict with all kinds of admonishments from blogs and other places to get out and experience life now. Below is a clip that I found on a blog:
When I was in Washington, it seemed like I wasn't really living my life, more like I was just waiting. Here it doesn't feel so much like I'm waiting. More like I'm looking out tentatively waiting to feel like it's time to step out and explore, and that that time will come. I'm where I'm supposed to be, I'm just getting centered so I can step out. When I was back in Nashville and in Hot Springs around friends I reconfirmed that being back there with friends is the primary point of the entire exercise. I want to be able to be back among friends without the debt, and free to get out and experience life. To do that, I need to get myself into better physical shape, and start eliminating excess baggage. And, I need to enjoy myself along the way while I do that.
I just needed to remind myself of this today.